Hadeh!! Some random thought!

04Sep11

Yo,

After so many things happened in my life and months of neglecting/abandoning this blog, here I am back to write some of my thought. I dont know I just feel I wanna express my feelings this time, and maybe a chance to revive my blog again perhaps.

Well the week has been started slow and a bit of discouraging, nothing really much happen even within weekdays, towards weekend started to get the engine going but at the same time must deal with some stuff so kinda bit disheartening as well. I know you might be confuse, heck I’m also confuse why am I writing this now. so bare with me.

Monday is really very very boring cant even remember what I did, I just glad it’s over. Oh wait, I was having KTV session with some of my strikeforce buddies, Gosh it was actually not too bad, except the rude waitress that talk in harsh way to us, was so bad even my female friend complain to her supervisor. Yup. Moving on to Tuesday, day was Hari Raya/Lebaran holiday, was expecting for something that exciting but nothing really happened until about 6pm I met up with few of friends from Indo service for dinner at Garuda Padang resto at Vivo City, sure glad it made my day to talk to these people. Then Wednesday,, can’t remember anything happened on that day

Thursday daytime was extremely slow at office I just wanted to knock off soon so I can go cell group, play cajon meet my family E406. which happened later on, and on CG, Wayne played video of Pastor Kong talking about having vision and dreams, what will you like to be in 5 years, in areas of Community (family/friends), Carries/Studies, and Church. Well, as exciting as I penned down some thoughts, for Community well in five years I would like to see myself happily married, with woman that I love, has pretty smile, really wish shes Indo, love God and love my family, and support me all the way. For Carriers, I see myself as businessman, I want it to be something to do with IT, if not trading, something like agent for import commodities. Church, I definitely wants to go for SOT, its a school program for theology held by my church, and I also want to be cellgroup guitarist. – I came back home that night fells very exciting about my future.

Friday I’m in love.. surely did. For the first time in my live I went for vocal/singing course. Never been to any kind of this before. I’m all excited and nervous at same time. Why u ask? Well my teacher happen to be band lead vocals of Goodfellas, home-band of Timbre, the band and the bar is actually widely known in Spore. I’ve been a big fans of this person because of his bright voice, and he able sing the high notes. After come tad too early to the class, I finally met him, there he was stand in front of me, talk casually. Owh man, my dream came true, learn vocals from somebody I’m a fan of. Wait, did I mention that he’s also Indo? I mean how coincidence? What a talent that my country Indonesia have. I learned about chest voice, head voice, and how important as a singer is to do voice practice and warm up everyday. wow. well he did mention about all the vocals technique but its all fly out of my brain now thanks to me I forgot not to record the lesson. Well In the end of session he asked me to sing one song for him so that he can listened to my voice color. I had many songs in mind actually, but dang I choose the easy one, Use somebody by King of Leon. Ackhh, been singing that songs like forever, why did i choose that? But it sounded not too bad, in fact I don’t know why that could be the most confident time that I sang this song ever, and I sung it comfortably, I attributed it to the warm up he gave me before-during the lesson, how awesome!!

Alright fast forward to Saturday I woke up quite late like 11am, then call my mom and dad to catch up things with them and also to talked about this business idea that I had, which I pray it will come to pass not just to be some wish wash and be throwed to wastebin. Went to service at 7am, had amazing service with Phil Pringle, he (again) talked about Vision and dreams from Habakuk 2:1-3, how your dream can seem to go die and gone ashtray but actually it was God’s plan to turn that way. Think about how Jesus was given a vision by God that he would become savior of the world, but yes firstly he need to be dead, be crucified on the cross for our sins. AMAZING! Feel very encouraging, and after it ends, had a late fellowship dinner with Cellgroup, then I went back home.

As I walked from MRT station to my block, I feel that I need to talk to Deni, so I call him. Well we talked for one hour plus in overseas call, Haha, so gay! he mentioned he’s very happy that I called him because he was in his parents hometown back at Kebumen and how quite the place/village is, it’s so not his type, Hahaha! yeah so I talked about the vocal class that I went to and also about the business idea, how if it possible to do it Jakarta, he happily welcome the idea, he even think it could be huge if we package and market it well.

Finish talking to him I went back home but to my surprise when I’m about to sleep the scariest thing happen in my house. Just FYI, looking at how many things happened in my life I don’t want to take thing too seriously, but well yeah now that I think back this was seriously scary. What’s the deal?

Well my landlord is a 60ish y.o lady, live together with her son 40 y.o, had some serious problem with drinking. Last night he went back home at 1am, drunk. He shouted loud (he did many times so at first I took it lightly), but after a while I heard glass shattered, sounded like it was punched. And after that another punch, this time like to plank of wood, “must be the iron board” I thought. True enough after a while Aunty (the lady owner) knock my door ask my help to sit next to him calm him down. I saw blood coming from his forehand, and lot of blood drip on the floor. He was yammering and blabbering nonsense (he’s drunk duh), but even after I come he still talking but realizing that I was next to him then he started to get calm.

A flashback, I think to myself, happened before it happened again this time. When I still stay with my uncle, this same thing happened, he got so angry because i talked back to him, he throwed the ashtray to the floor and then punch the glass table. His hand was bleeding so much I think it cuts the vein, still give me goosebump as I writing this.

Today after I went back from Elisa’s birthday, I just had a H2H talk with my lady owner, she opened up about his son. How bad his past is, and how he always quit from his job because of his lack working quality that makes the employer not happy and fired him. I don’t know what to reply, I just tell her keep praying for her son, that this could be one of God’s plan. I entered my room, and I cry. I had a soft spot for people burden, because I had so much burden in my life that I thought it feels heavy, but yet there’s still another people who has burden even greater than me. I’m still lucky, I should have never take granted with what God has given to me, I shoulda work harder, and not wasting time to procrastinate, be lazy.

So there you go guys, some story of my life, am not a good writer or even good storytelling, and there even no insight about this post. Well even if there is, I would say, Guys, please don’t take for granted with what you are and what you have today. Stay happy and positive!

Ciao!