I’m feeling like a jerk-ass

16Feb10

I just broke up with my girlfriend. The relationship lasted for 3 years until yesterday we decided to separate, start a new page of our own life. Of course like many break up stories that has been told, there’s a reason lies behind it. But I think for a good sake I won’t share it here, I just feel I don’t need too.

It’s hard, for her, I mean for me as well, but she got it worst, it struck her pretty hard. I don’t totally understand why, maybe because girls are sensitive than guys. Maybe because its hard for her to let me go. I’m not trying to be a good guy here, on the other way, this just make me feel bad and terrible.

I feel like a scumbag, ungrateful bastard that couldn’t accepted her of what she is. I cried. I cried a bucket of tears. I know I’ll be okay to carry on, but I couldn’t help to wonder if she will able to. Uhhuuu. God, am I making the right the choice? Am I trying to mould your way to be my way? Uhhhuuu.

Tears are coming out from my eyes as I writing these words. No kidding.

I feel messed up right now. Help me God.